Just in case

I am not a blog guy and am definately not a diary guy. God knows how many times i have started and stopped after just a few entries. Well this is just another try.

This was not meant as a blog to begin with. Just an online diary for me. But i dont mind this being read by anyone especially because i feel the world is too big and has too many people for someone who i know to read this and trace this back to me. If someone does then thats when i start believing in destiny :)

If sm1 does read this by chance, i would like to give some pretext to me. I am indian and a guy who believes in common sense rather than anything else. The phase i am in is the 'maintain a stable income' one. My previous one was 'Buy a house' bit. May be sometime i will get a chance to all the diff phases i had gone thru and what i will probably go through in the future as well. Well as of now the next phase is 'Find a bride and get married' thing.

Its interesting isn't it !!

Sleepless in Swindon

Well, i really havent told much abt myself yet, in short i am not a person who gets surprised or loses his cool that easily. I am no hero but ppl know me for my level headedness. Well the topic of discussion is 'Marriage'.

You see i have always had this thing in my head about this event, this happening, this phase or whatever u may call it. I thought that just like any other 'thing' this should be dead easy. i.e. Parents find a girl - you talk to girl - girl talks to u - if 'Y' from both - dumm dumm dumm - if no back to step 1.
See, its a very simple algorithm !! Well atleast i thought it was :(

Day 1 - The ADs
My father kind of decided that it would be a gud idea to give an AD in a newspaper. Never for once did i think this is gonna be a huge step. 11 calls + 1 email !! Thats what we got on the first sunday the AD was published. I was kewl as usual when chatting with my parents, joking around and not worrying much about the things. But god was i wrong. I think i got so good at acting as if nothing was wrong that i was fooling myself !! Well all that changed. I am still not sure when i freaked out and got so worried but i wasn't able to sleep!! Being the stuburn git i am, I did not even realise what was happening until today. Well so much for mr. Cool

I ended up sleeping at 4:30 in the morning. Over here the sun's up pretty early these seasons and i had a 2 hour nap before coming over to office. Things are not as good as i would expect them to be but they are not worse as well. Its high time that i get ready to express what i want.. the way i want.

PS : To be honest i am feeling much better now ;)

You've Got Mail

Its 11pm here and i have just finished watching the 1998 'feel good' movie - you've got mail. The last couple of hours have only made me realise the i cannot change myself no matter what :) i will always remain the hopeless guy always in search of the so called stupid romance. I might not find it or may be it will never find me. But one thing i can be sure of is that i should not stop being myself at no point.
Well if anyone does read this by sheer chance, i am not drunk!! I have always wanted to share my feelings and thoughts - well here goes nothing. I will find time to update this place with my past, present and future. I would definately wanna read this myself oneday and get to understand me better.
Well its already late for today and this is no bad start.

BTW meg ryan is my iphone wallpaper now. She is a cutie ;)